Part 3: The Breaking of My Heart. VI.VIII.MMXI

The Lord, Our Lord God Almighty, has broken my heart for what breaks his!

A war...
              Waging on inside my heart.


... A heart that had attached itself to unnessecary earthly possesions.

                              ...Never again!..

Never again will my heart be plagued and rotted with these earthly distractions. Those things re-enforce the viel that blinds us so...

....Oh how blind!

                           How blind we are!

The fan we flame is not one of hope but of consumerism! We contribute to this secular, consumeristic desire that is so pungent and prevelant in this generation of remnants, remnants and ends to come.

The viel must be broken!

We wish to be free to wander the streets in revalation.

We wish to have revival screaming from our throats!

Yet we are not prepared to give up some so called 'necessities'

to present to God as offerings of obedience and so that they may be signs

signifying that we are no longer slaves to sin but we are dead to it and alive in Christ,

the one whom is holy and our one true Saviour!

It further speaks of our alien nature in this world. We are not called to be of it but we are IN it as Gods ambassadors! We are to show His Grace and light in the darkness!

Oh Lord! Oh God! Where art thou my King! Your presence now pails to the comparison of which our heart yearns for. When will we wake up!? When will we see with these eyes that do not see!?

We talk of salvation, revalation and revival in the hearts of the lost, yet musn't we take the plank out of our own eyes before we take the speck out from our brothers?! (Matthew 7:3-5)

My brothers and sisters this is the breaking of mine heart that I speak of. The reason why the Lord my God broke my heart for what breaks his. It is when we choose to put material possessions, things of this world, earthly things in our lives and anything that we would put first in our kives before God. It is an idol! Everytime you say "I will do this then spend time with God" Your saying that you love that thing more than you love God! I do not speak of things that cannot be changed like work or things we must do but things of CHOICE, things that can wait, things of importance, things that would not help us run the race for Christ that will ever so soon be won

These wise words come to mind for the discerning of things we may or may not idolise before God.

"God grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the Courage to change the things I can and the Wisdom to know the difference."

Once again brothers and sisters, this is for your encouragement for your benefit and to challenge idle hearts as mine has been challenged also.

May these words take there leave on your hearts and let not the Spirit be held back in His work in you precious lives.

All the Glory to God, peace and grace to you all forever and ever to the grace of our Eternal King, Amen.

Part 2: Repentance; Forgiveness and treasures in jars of clay. IV.VIII.MMXI

An ephod of broken roads, the roads of the mind; perceptions of guilt and forgiveness.

One is of a man who has sinned or is living in sin. Forgiveness is his but he feels like he plays the part of Judas:

Betrayer.

Another is a man who has reconciled with God his path (mind clearer). Now a gazelle jumping and flitting from thought to thought in search of the final stage.

The final, is a man back on the path both feeling and knowing forgiveness, he has found forgiveness.

The Cross.

Our iniquities are laid out at the foot of the Cross, the place where our forgiver was slain.

Do you look into his eyes and say your sorry?

Do you look at his wounds and think

"What is it that I did that put Him there?"

You cast your eyes back at the foot of the Crosss and see why He is there. But then you look at your hands and see them covered by a pure mans blood. And then you know that you were marked, a mark that shows the love that is contained within this mans heart; love lays with him but light and forgiveness are in his expression. A true expression of love.

He then speaks and says "My child, my son do you know what is written on my face? Doyou see what I have done? Look at my feet. Your iniquities are gone, forgiven. My dearest child, I now accept you as my own, I have left my mark on your heart and arms.

A look of bewilderment appears on your face as once again you look to the foot of the cross. You are looking and then realise ehat you had put down there no longer remains (exists).

"See my son, this is my love for you. Everyday I seek communion and fellowship with you, I crave your presence and every time you idol something before me once again I am put here only for you to arrive late and seek a time of repentance rather than a time of rejoicing. But look at your hands, see that blood? It is mine. A mark on your heart to say 'No longer be afraid, I have claimed my Bride by my own pure blood'.

My sons and daughteres this is a sign of hope. Signified by change of a covenant.

Awake O' you hearts of gold, bronze and silver.

Awake O' you tormented by self pitty and shame. 

Awake O' Jerusalem Awake my body; the Church

Awake O' my dear pur and spotless Bride!

I am here! Oh how you never have to fear again fof the sake of fear. The power of the Cross, it's revalation is afresh each day. Claim it as your own my dear children!
Claim it and come join me! Hoho! How I love to be in your presence!

Come all ye faithful, BE JOYFUL, YOU ARE TRIUMPHANT!

My Blood has made this so!

Oh how I miss you my children of light blinded by sin!
Oh how I love you and crave you everyday!
Oh the day where I am free to return is drawing near!
The time where you no longer come to me as in forgiveness but in joy, praising and dancing in my good and holy name! Rejoice for I am near! Oh how close it is!

My dear children prepare ye the way!
I am ready to loose My Church, My Doctrine, My Truth and My Foundation unto thee!
Let go thy chains of this world! Grab a hold of hope and don't let go!

I am coming says the Lord, I am coming!

Rrjoice, rejoice! Praise the Lord and rejopice!

Oh how i wish to be with you! To converse, to eat, to play and to enjoy you for whom I made you to be! The pure and spotless Bride!"

Oh thank you Lord that through my brokeness and weakness you can be made my strength and my unfailing love!

Hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah, Amen!

All the Glory be unto the Lord forever and foralways.

True Repentance; True Forgiveness. III.VIII.MMXI

My brothers and sisters I challenge you; when we come to the Father in Repentance to ask for Forgiveness are you truly sorry? Are you sincere in all your heart, mind, soul and spirit?

If not, are you forgiven?

If so, were you on your hands and knees torn at the thought of what you had done?
Or had you put in your Christian card into the atm of God and withdrawn some forgivness?

My brothers and sisters do you claim it in the Name of Jesus or by the blood of Christ that was spilt on the Cross at Cavalry?

For me I am struggling with this now. and Romans 7:15-18 spells it out greatly for me (also to the end of the chapter and chapter 8 aswell)

"I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do but what I hate I do, And if I do what I do not want to do I agree that the law is good. As it is, it is no longer myself who do it but the sin living in me."

I feel that after we have committed a sin or sins that as we go to ask for forgiveness it is so that we can be free from that feeling of guilt (from what I understand in Romans 7), not because we are sorry for what we have done, and that is trespass God.

That is why I said "...do you claim it in the Name of Jesus or by the blood of Christ that was spilt on the Cross at Cavalry?"

In Ephesians 1:7-9 it says: "In Him we find redemption through His blood, the forgiveness of sins, in accordance, with the riches of Gods grace the he lavished on us with all wisdom and understanding..."

And in the OT they would sacrifice the first born animal without defect, sprinkling it's blood on the altar for the forgiveness of their sins.

Jeremiah 13 talks about our pride and how long will we go unclean?

How long will we go unclean?

I feel greatly that God is challenging me on this: "Are you really repentant; are you really forgiven?"

God would also say that He can bring good out of everything and anything. He is in all the good that you do no matter how you feel or who you feel you are God can use a broken vessel with his perfect love because he is a perfect Father and Creator.

I just to challenge you all to make repentance sincere. Ask God to meet with you on this.

Is your repentance like an atm transaction or are you sincere and aware of the sin committed against God or others?

I hope and pray these words help you in someway.

God bless and grace and peace unto you all.

From a loving brother to the Body.